Overthinking(Part 1): A Journey of Inner Healing and Faith

We’ve talked about this before— Mindset is powerful.

But how we feel today often stems from our internal emotional state, not external circumstances. And here's the truth: emotions can be wrong.  Not that feeling emotions is wrong, but sometimes the emotion we experience in the moment doesn’t reflect the truth. Our emotions are often trained responses from past experiences, patterns our brain has learned. How we’ve been taught to interpret life, our worldview, and mental habits—all shape our inner responses. If those thought patterns are deeply rooted in negativity or fear, it becomes difficult to break free. It can feel like we're stuck in a cycle that drains us rather than fuels us.

When Motherhood Feels Like Losing Yourself

During those long, full-time-at-home days, when every moment is given to the family, children, and spouse, it’s easy to forget about yourself.  Loneliness sets in. You feel unseen. The version of me who used to walk confidently in high heels, with a sense of purpose and a role in society, slowly faded. She was replaced by a woman isolated within the walls of her home, swallowed up by chores, unacknowledged sacrifices, and the weight of daily life. And the emotions? They became a whirlwind—confusion, frustration, sadness. Without real communication, and in growing isolation, I was forced to confront the truth: this wasn’t just survival—it was a journey of rediscovering myself.

I needed to restore and rebuild my heart. But how?  

Emotionally and mentally drained after years of giving and striving, I began asking other mothers who were walking a similar path: How do you do it? How do you carry on—especially with children who have special needs, or lives that are equally demanding?  They too faced countless challenges, and yet… it felt like I was the only one breaking.  One verse echoed in my heart: “But those who wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles….Isaiah 40:31 NKJ”

For over a decade, I prayed and hoped:  When will I be renewed?  And then I realized: God had always been near.  But I hadn’t been fully holding onto His promises.  I thought my own strength, my strong will, my determination could carry me through. Until one day, close friends unexpectedly pulled away. Maybe I had unknowingly become too heavy, too emotionally draining.  That was when I returned to God—not out of ritual, but with a broken and surrendered heart.  And in that place of surrender, I finally understood what it meant to fully trust and let go.

Through the sermons of a deeply respected pastor, I received a message from God—one that began to change how I saw everything.
I began holding onto His Word, meditating on it daily, and living it out, little by little……. (see Part 2 to continue)